Friday, December 09, 2011

Be The Change You Desire

I had no idea a trip to India would have such a profound effect on my life.

There I was, trudging through the sweltering 110 degree heat of Jaipur in May, steering clear of contaminated ice and white knuckling it on tuk tuk rides, when I realized something needed to change.

That change was me.

Overweight, 34-years-old and single, I had a moment of self actualization somewhere between the Taj Mahal and my 15th broken ATM.

I can wait for life to happen, or I can make the life I want.

Chances are, if you wait for life to happen, it's not going to end up the way you'd choose.

And so I started running.

That was the first pivotal thing I did to make the change I wanted in my life. You've read a little bit about my running efforts. I started running, slowly, in the beginning of June. I continue to run as part of my training for a half marathon I'm running in 44 days in California.

I've lost 30 pounds and counting. I feel healthier, my heart is stronger, and my body fat continues to melt away.

I made that change all on my own.

My second big change. I haven't talked about it much here, and out of respect for those involved, I'd prefer to keep it that way.

We can be consumed with love for another, but if that person is not able to love us back, we are wasting one of the greatest gifts a human being can offer.

My love is a treasure.

90 days ago I walked away from the closest relationship in my universe. It still hurts, but since I made that choice, I've broadened promising horizons and have rediscovered the value of my solo self.

I know my hopes and dreams hinge on this change.

And today marks another significant change. After almost four years of working for a noble and well respected employer, I am embarking on a new opportunity with exciting challenges.

I have a distinct vision of myself in five, 10 and 20 years, and that vision requires me to aspire to professional growth. As much as I have enjoyed the current station of my professional life, I know myself well enough to know that a change would better suit my hopes and dreams.

Monday brings with it a new job title, a new office and a heap of new things to learn.

I know that I'm not even fully aware of how this change will impact my life.

What I do know is that, on a hot and sweaty day in India, I had my "Ah ha" moment.

I need to start living the life I want, and I'm the only person who can make that life happen.

So, here goes.

"What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments, but what is woven into the lives of others." - Pericles 

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